Lonely

I have been bartending with a very limited bar for the past few months and I am feeling lonely for a nice big bar. I miss the wood, the tools, beer taps, the assortment of liquor, beer, and wine. I miss cutting lots of fruit. I miss the feeling of all the things a hamilton beach juicer can do. I miss having running water to wash my hands in. I miss my zester and my microplane. I am longing to be with some new distinct products. I am very jealous of the ones who have all of this. I even miss cleaning the beer taps and mats and cooler floor.

I am sure this will pass. I am even more sure this is why I have not been able to make a post since December 5, 2008. I am feeling like my talent and knowledge is being wasted. I have sacrificed all of this for my kids and I need to find a balance. I am so lonely for a real working functional bar. Just thought I'd let the world know my heart is empty now.